was this family gathering a glimpse of a future or was I just being out of place again?
in my life you never know. changing environments is nothing new to me. it's more like a comfort. i take comfort in change. i need motion. flow. life. and it doesn't even have to mean excitement. as long as it's always something different going on, and as long as there is a goal, i'm happy. just look at what happened when i reached my goal a few years back.
i didnt know what to do anymore. so i started searching for wrongs. and mostly they werent even my own. but it was as genuine concern. a will to change the world for the better. because my place gave me insight. and i saw that nothing was impossible. some people thought of me as a bitch but i was just being confident and it had nothing to do with them whatsoever. unfortunately they managed to break me down down down, back to where i came from.
and it makes me think of Luffy from the anime One Piece, climbing that mountain with his bare hands, and as he reaches the top, something or someone makes him fall, and as he is trying to get back his grip, his hands start to bleed. so he has to start all over, this time even more painful than the last.
i think i said enough about that and i think you are smart enough to get my point.
at least if you managed to find this blog somehow.
bye for now.
